like a rhinestone cowboy

Well this week has been both fun and depresing, fun cause I had a surprise exam on Tuesday evening, not that it I was not aware, just that my skool weeks got messed up so I thought I didn't have it till next week...oh well... it was about java and netbeans, and you could take "apoyo didactico" LOL, what a lame exam, I was all freaked out caused I hadn't studied and it was so F**King easy!!!
So now I'm studing for my next exam, that is also easy mainly cause I flunked the course, there I said it I'm not bloddy perfect (this comes from a person that is not used to fail in anything). But anywho im reading a new book by John Grisham - A Painted House, basicly a novel, but I'm feeling sick of reading novels, I mean there is a more accurate sense of reality in books that tell real stories, like that Anne Frank or similar, but I forgot how to be a bookworm long time ago, so whatever...

Let's get to the depressing part, well what can I say, isn't it basicly existential to suffer a bit to later feel happy, I felt very bummed out on Tuesday, cause I had to hang out with my friends that where working with this guy I used to have a crush on anda that stopped talking to me months ago..., so I hate to see his ugly mug but, no, I had to stand his distastefull jokes and stupid comentaries....GRRRR, so I just curled up in my seat and listened to my Trick Turner slash The Distillers slash Chevelle CD-R on my discman, while my HtB sat next to me and asked if I felt ok...

I feel tired, why do things don't work out like we want to, I mean us Over-achievers/Straight A's/Geeky losers don't get no breaks... for shize my nize
ROTFLMAO

nat out

ps: by the way the title is cause i was listening to that song on the radio.. what a LOL lame-o song... still it's funny.

* music* (makes the people come together....uhh uhh)

my fav bands are all mixed up

no doubt - #1, ive listened to these guys since their beginings in O.C. cause Santa Fe Springs (my home town) was like 20 min from where they came out, so they where a popular local band.

bjork - just cause she sings like no other

deftones - just the kind of mellow hardcore rock you just can not resist loving

kittie - dont you just love girls singing hardcore rap -thats what they call it

incubus - portishead - daft punk - paul van dyke - carl cox , etc

i guess majorly all my winamp reflects my personal hardcore- triphop-electronic tastes...
but im also into 80's retro not too much cause i only remember like madonna or prince...LOL

atte,
nat
circa '83

odd little me

so whats been up, whats been down... the ground, i recently became aware that i always look at the ground, i cant seem to look up, i rarely speak to people to their face, and the actual fact of my knowing this habit was happening came from someone else... odd, yes; but what can i do, maybe it's from years of low self estime and lack of confidence, yeah i may be a nerdy outgoing geek but my social skills suck, lets start with anaylizing the fact that i grew up very alone, as a kid in L.A., one is secluded to living inside, because other ways you''ll be kidnapped or murdered by the ice cream man or such... that made life just a little to weird, i mean i did play a lot, mostly by myself, and my dad gave me everything me little heart could desire, but still i was alone, combing my barbie dolls hair or watching muppet babies on tv, (and sesame street after that). Thus i come to the conclusion that been by myself made me really secure of being alone, im not one of those persons that flips out cause he/she stayed at home one evening. Also i've thought that my huge more than normal imagination is brought on by the years i spent like this. I remember i used to go to ballet and tap, one of my major lifetime flunks, i mean i didnt suck but i wasn't tall or blonde, so of course little chubby me was just left in the background, even though i loved to dance, all my home videos my dad taped i was always dancing (yes, it was the 90's so i was majorly dancing rap, how LOL), but still i didnt have many friends at school, i remember how i got in trouble for always been with the wrong kind of friends my dad used to say, the ones that always got perfect A student little me into trouble, yeah i was your usual teachers' pet, the one always getting to be student of the month and that crap. It seems funny now, but that was the only thing i was good at, well that and drawing, i wish i could do art, too bad said life: "im not gonna let ya'". talking about this is really bumming me out, i think im gonna start crying so bye for now, and by the way i wanna thank any of you who read my blog, im ever so gratefull.

ta-ta
nat

geisha tears

melancholic star
just a few pics from my personal gallery

++nag**

well it's been days since i posted anything new, majorly cause i felt sucky and lousy, but today one of my friends nagged me about it so i decided that i would post a new one.
post: so whats up?
nat: nothing much...
post: did u do anything this weekend
nat: well i didnt go out or anything exciting as my friends do... maybe thats why i felt sucky
post: but did u do anything else
nat: well i did rent bowling for columbine, a great movie by far. Michael Moore is the ballsiest guy ever!
post: thats cool... so are u feelin ok
nat: well define better, if better is happy. maybe i did feel happy today, cause i went to the gym and the day was sunny so that efected my mood, you know all those endorfines been pumped into your body have that efect...
but then i got to skool, and it was raining cats and dogs!!!!, and i got bummed all over again...
post: your useless!
nat: F**K OFF!

nat out



ps: H&K 2 my hell twin brother!

personal

this is just a personal note, i was fucking around in my java class, waht a bore, and i found this link
http://www.jsptut.com/FirstJsp.jsp

not eto self: "self, get studing"

*whack*

if any one was used to searching for serials at serials.ws, big fat error!, your
gonna get a trojan called StartI that will f**ck up your homepage and will be
almost imposible to remove, believe me it took me 2 days, the problema wasn't so much the virus
itself, it was the fact that after my PandaAntiVirus caught it, my home page got stuck on someloser search page i obviously didn't want so I searched and searched for a fix,
anti adwares, spywares, you name it, (by the way a word of advice download Ad-aware and SpySweeper, cause they found almost 70 filesworth of those types of files rotting in my hard drive), any who, I finally fixed the problem with CWSHredder, the only MF that did his job!
So there I'm back to being a happy camper, just thought this info was worth sharing...



nat out

Sputnik sweetheart

Sputnik sweetheart

This is the title of the book I'm reading; it's a Japanese novel, nice so far.
So I haven’t come around to tell that I was at the beach this past weekend, so I didn't get a chance to update my blog, it wasn't a big trip of sorts just a getaway from the rain, but still at least some fun stories to tell. Where shall I begin....hum.
Well I went to one of these all-inclusive hotels in Guanacaste (Tambor), I had not been there in years, to the obvious fact that it sucks, unless your like an alcoholic or white trash, cause the fact of the matter is ticos do not have manners of any kind, I do know there are some of you out there that may be an exception, but for good sakes....

a cool summer pic

First
My sis and I are sitting nicely at our table, the service is crappy most of the time, but anyway, if you have any decency you know that a buffet is not a feeding pen, your not supposed to jam all you can see in one plate, I swear every time it's the same, rude people that cut inline before you, grab all the food a plate can hold, from salad, on top the main course, bread on side and desert on top of it all, I swear horse shit looks better than what some people serve themselves at these places.
Second
So my sis and I are eating our salad, yes salad on one plate! And I'm looking around to restaurant, it's hopeless not to do so, and I catch a glimpse of some girl drowning herself in one of these mountain top plates, she grabs the fork like a prehistoric hunter on the prowl and attacks the piece of fried fish and starts chomping on it in this corndog-like style. After that you could imagine the disgust to see that her plate with a large amount of leftovers goes to her boyfriends side of the table, where he too continues to eat, I was petrified, I mean the guy was eating her partially chewed leftovers while she stretched over the table with a big spoon the get a piece of his desert, YUK!
So anyway I hope this example gives a “nice” picture of what table manners look like from a third person perspective. I say the best manners are the ones that are the simplest.
I mean you don’t have to go around acting like a goddamn prince, just a little decency and common sense will make you look good in any situation.
Third
The snack bar….tantantan! LOL, this story is more simple, we’re sitting by the pool and one of these “papi chulos” as I call them, passes by us, grinning to all the chicks just to show off how hot he is, what a riot, so next thing I know the guy is coming out of the snack bar holding as many paper plates he can, fries, hot dogs, burgers, you name it he had it, but then all of the sudden he tripped, and fell on his butt, you should have seen it, I swear that it was like watching in slow motion, an better yet, all the food came falling down on him…. My lord was that funny as hell, I mean if he had not been such a hot shot beach stud wanna be, maybe someone would have helped him get up or something, but what goes around, comes around. Everyone around the pool just stared in awe…

So on a more cheerful note, the weather over there was perfect lots of good sun for my potato colored legs, LOL, and on Saturday night we went to a foam party, I had never been to one, and it was actually very cool, full of drunk middle-age men, but cool, LOL.

Also my dad bought me one of those stuffed souvenir animals, it’s a lizard/salamander filled with sand and made with metallic blue fabric, his name is Uki, and he’s from Malaysia, I’ll try to get a photo of him to post soon.

Well that’s all folks

C ya!

ps: i got into my head i want to the the eco-challenge, any one wanna join...LOL